An Agony of Hyacinths

Lying sideways in the wet grass,
trying to capture the hyacinth
in late day sun.
The click of a shutter and I look,
instantly,
at the image and smile.
Then a shadow passes
and I wonder what I've lost.
No longer waiting
in excusite agony
for the film to be processed,
wondering,
hoping,
that just one image
would match
what I saw with my eyes.
Befuddled by progress.
Unwilling
to go back.