I follow the light
as it peeks through
the cracks
creating patterns
on walls
and floors
and crayon drawn girls
who smile
no matter the weather.
It reflects
off framed photographs
creating
double exposed
images.
Letting my eyes unfocus
I create worlds,
beautiful and warm,
until harsh sounds
bring me back
to this day
for now.
I long
for blinding sun
reflecting
off of white snows.
A sweet agony
to the eyes
soon to be followed
by muffled steps
and heavy breaths
frosting before my eyes
in cold air.
Time has passed
but still
falls rain.
That I sit here surrounded by crayon drawings of big headed girls (she’s in her big head phase)
and photographs of family sometimes startles me, as looking back, I identified with (then) planet Pluto. The smallest furthest away speck of a world and I marvel at the collisions which brought me here. Center.
Morning distinguishes itself from night only in the quantity of gray light it provides. The rain still falls, pulling color from life as it washes down. School buses splash by, no longer yellow but drifting in to goldenrod on their way down spectrum. The color white is only an abstract idea, a Platonic ideal, that exists only in a perfect world where perfect rain reflects perfect sun and warms souls.
Perhaps I’ll dance, this afternoon, while snowflakes cascade down, clinging to my eyelashes, blurring my vision, presenting me a kaleidoscope world where I’ll spin until I’m too dizzy to stand, so I’ll fall harmlessly into a pile of leaves then roll into the cabbage patch and see if my head stands out in the crowd.